Chad,
My son Jackson is an ALL survivor. On July 7, 1998 he was declared terminal. Thru the power of prayer he survived his disease. If ever there was a time, it is now. Completely surrender yourself to the hand of our Lord, Jesus. Don't know if you are a believer...God doesn't care about yesterday, just about right now...and right now...
My son is now 14 and plays rugby in Denver, CO. I know if I didn't believe, he wouldn't be with us today. Let go, love and trust in the grace of the Almighty...he is paying attention...and He loves you!
Godspeed on your complete recovery.
Nick Rucker, Jackson Rucker's Dad.